Her Name is Gloria June

Waldo Street                Groveland, Florid

One of the things Devan and I are trying to be more intentional about is spending quality time with people–taking time to sit and listen and be with those we know well and those we’d like to know better. Today’s visit to some of the dearest brought back grateful memories. My first, of what I hope to be many, posts of 2018 . . .

The year was 1991, the month was July, and the place was Groveland, Florida. Devan and I had just landed in the United States after spending three years in Papua New Guinea as teachers. We were broke, pregnant, and jobless, and many school districts had already hired for the coming year. The Internet was not something available to the general public and even if it had been, we certainly didn’t have a computer, so the job hunt equaled countless hours on the phone, calling districts to request lists of job openings. Chemistry and Physics. Groveland High School. Devan called for an interview and after an initial phone conversation, was asked to come in for a second talk.

Driving up to Groveland High was like going back in time. The building, charming and old, made me smile. Principal Gray, the kind of man who most likely carried a pocket protector at one point in his career, greeted us with a broad smile and firm handshake. While he and Devan went into the office, the school’s administrator introduced herself and showed me around. Her name was Mrs. Potter, Gloria June.

Gloria June Potter is one of those people you never every forget, nor would you ever want to. Petite and lovely with a strong central Florida twang, from the moment I met her I sensed that she would be a Person in my life . .  and my sense was correct in every way.

Our Rental On Magnolia

Devan was offered the teaching position that same day and we faced finding affordable housing quickly. The next day a call from Gloria June led us to her neighbor, Mrs. Marie Padgett, who had a rental house that had just come available directly across from the Groveland High School football stadium, a 3 minute walk to the main building. We passed Mrs. Padgett’s rental criteria and found ourselves moving in soon after. Hardly a day would pass without Gloria June stopping by with a casserole or some canned tomatoes or a simple, “How are y’all settling in?”

Gloria June and her husband Bill, a giant of a man deserving of his own story, opened their arms and made us part of their large extended family, including their church family, and it was at church two months after our arrival that Gloria June was with me when I went into premature labor with Sam. His due date of December 20th was usurped by almost three months on a Wednesday evening midweek service and Gloria June held my hand and prayed while Devan called the ambulance. At one of the scariest moments of my life, Gloria June was there. I can remember tears streaming down her face as she whispered, “Father, don’t let this baby die.”

Examples of Gloria June’s Canning Expertise

Over the next few months as we made the hour long trip daily to visit Sam at Orlando’s Florida South Hospital, Gloria June cooked and visited and prayed and loved and cried and laughed and supported. Once Sam came home, she helped us find a reasonably priced washing machine so I wouldn’t have to go to the laundry mat with Sam’s diapers. (Yes, I was one of those cloth diaper moms.) She baby sat for free (I would trust very few) so Devan and I could have an outing alone every so often. She and Bill hosted Sam’s first birthday party during a hurricane when the planned park party was cancelled.

Gloria June’s thriftiness included recycling long before it was trendy.

Our time in Groveland was not meant to last forever–we soon realized we were only dropping in. Two years after arriving we accepted the offer to teach at the International School of Kenya and began moving plans. There was a window of time between moving out of our rental and departing that we needed a place to live as Devan was still working a part time job for the University of Florida Research department. There was never a question in Gloria June’s mind of where we’d stay while preparing to leave–they offered us a room in their not-so-huge home, a room for which they refused payment. And when we left it was as if their own blood kin was leaving, such was our send off.

Over the years we’ve stayed in touch, stopping in when we were able and when they were home. (Their own hearts took them to all 50 states as well as to northern Canada and India, teaching at Bible schools and loving strangers well. There are many Potter stories to be told.) Our visits always included a table ladened with Gloria June’s amazing country cooking, tons of people, (“I hope you don’t mind. I thought you’d like to see a few folks during your visit.”) and much laughter. Our visits always included Bill’s prayers for safety and mercy and grace. Our visits always overflowed with love.

A Gift of Cake and Love                  December 27, 2014

When Sam and Heather were planning their wedding, it was Gloria June who called to offer the gift of a wedding cake. The tiered cake and cupcakes were beautiful to the eyes and delicious to the taste. The photo of Sam, Heather, Gloria June and the gorgeous cake serves as a testimony of friendship that endures distance and years. She was there the night he was born and 22 years later, she was there the night he was wed, still giving, still loving.

Homemade Pepper Vinegar in Recycled Bottle

Today Devan and I drove to Groveland to start our year off with a Potter visit. Just like much of Florida, parts of Lake County are unrecognizable as growth encroaches former farm land. But there on Waldo Street, time has stopped. Their dear red brick home–the home originally belonging to Gloria June’s mother–still welcomes (it does have a new tin roof and they enclosed their carport and the new bathroom is lovely) and the dining room table is still laden with far too much home cooking. Bill moves a bit slower but his sharp mind is quick and engaging. Gloria June pats his hand and the conversation often includes their words of appreciation towards each other. They hosted 18 for New Year’s Day dinner. They have plans for a spring garden. They gave us homemade pepper vinegar to take home. They asked that we not wait so long to visit. They prayed for our safety and peace.

Gloria June and Bill are examples of lives well lived. They display true character and charity when our country seems to have fewer and fewer examples of what it means to authentically extend the hand of Christ. They are the kind of people Devan and I long to be as we age–generous, welcoming, non-judgmental, wise. Even an iota of their hearts would make us better people.

In 1991 I met a woman named Gloria June who taught me how real love must be active and out-flowing; in 2018 I’m still learning from her.

These People Here January 6, 2018



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The Year of Writing More




Those who know me best love me in spite of the fact that I struggle with time management. My best ideas too often come at the last minute and setting my watch ahead in an attempt to trick myself usually backfires as I compensate for the reset. So even though the holiday has come and gone, wishing each of you a Happy 2018 on the 6th day of the new year, at least based on my track record, is actually pretty good . . . and I am determined to continue to get better as I work on being more timely this year.

Another thing I’d like to work on in the upcoming year is writing more consistently and more often. Anne Lamott, author of the writing guide “Bird by Bird” and one of my favorite authors and humans, recently tweeted:

“If you write for a while today, you have a feeling of excitement, even if the writing is inadequate and too long, which it almost certainly will be.”

Lamott reassures writers that most days the writing left on the non-scrunched up paper will be fairly lousy but to continue putting ink-to-paper anyway. While writing daily won’t necessarily make me a super-star writer, NOT writing guarantees that I’ll never get better than I am in the now.

So . . . brace your inboxes as my goal is to put stuff out there. Words, lots and lots of words. Many will be lousy, some will not interest, but each will force me to stay the writing course. As always, feedback appreciated.

Love, hugs, and much joy to you in 2018 –



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To My Teaching Colleagues – Once Again, Your Time is Now


Photo Credit Tampa Bay Times 2016

I’m sitting here in a small, locally owned coffee shop, sharing electricity, Wi-Fi, and coffee with a packed room of fellow St. Augustinians. People are obviously stressed and most look as though they haven’t bathed in a while, but there is smiling and the trading off of electricity sockets, giving all the chance to recharge their beloved devices. The AC is cranking out coolish air as much as it can but the number of humans, as well as the bright Florida sun pouring through plate glass panes, diminishes its effect. I’m grateful to be here. (Thank you and shout out to the wonderful people at https://www.dosbar.com/. You are a refuge.)

My original week’s schedule included visiting schools to provide professional support but those plans have changed due to so many schools statewide being closed. Some districts were able to open today, some will open tomorrow or Friday, and some next week or later. Getting back to normal is based on floodwaters receding and power companies working overtime to get school buildings up and running. But open they will, eventually, and teachers will be there with open arms, listening ears, and active love.

My daughter-in-law, a 2nd grade teacher in Seminole County, will most likely greet her students Monday, September 18th, after not seeing them for over a week. We spoke yesterday and discussed the reality that returning to school after this type of event is truly like starting all over again. Her students will return to her overly excited, apprehensive, perhaps a bit scared. More than anything they will return to her with hope that school will be normal, the same, a place of safety. She will be all of that to them, and more.

This is one of those pivotal moments when I am reminded of the all-encompassing role played by K-12 teachers. In 2015-16 2, 791,525 students were enrolled in Florida’s public schools. For many of those 2 million plus students, school is the only safe and sure thing in their lives; it’s where many receive consistent meals and for some, it is the only place they are heard.

Sometime this week or next, school doors will open and the kids will come back. Teachers will be there to greet them. Many of those teachers will still be without power in their own homes, many will be displaced, many worried about what will or will not be covered by insurance. But they will come and do what they do best—care for children.

Credit The Greenville News, 2017

You see, many teachers went into the profession for just that. They are caring empathetic individuals and for them teaching is a calling. In spite of low pay, increasing criticism, and outrageous demands, they remain because they believe in what they do. It’s why they work countless hours off the clock, spend thousands of dollars of their own money to buy basic classroom resources, and remain steadfast even as elected officials use them as political pawns.

In the midst of all that insanity, teachers are now returning to classroom expectations that will remain in place; high stakes assessments will eventually be given, test preparation will be encouraged, data will be gathered. But for a moment my hope is that teachers will allow themselves time to just be, that they will gather their students around and reassure them that in spite of a world that seems upside down, things will gradually turn right side up again. Rather than hushing them and telling them to “pay attention” and “stay on task” my hope is that teachers will follow their gut and know their time would be better spent just listening to their students’ stories, giving them moments to process through drawing and writing and speaking and listening and being.

So to my teacher friends and colleagues statewide, your time is now, as it always has been. I have no doubt you will rise to the occasion and be that sense of normalcy desperately needed in moments such as these.



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Learning to Rejoice

“Rejoice with those who rejoice; weep with those who weep.” Romans 12:15

One of the things with which I am most comfortable—something I recognize as one of my better qualities—is my ease at mourning with others, holding people when they are hurting or listening when their hearts are breaking. My ability to be present with people in their darkness most likely comes from learning through the many times others have been present with me and my grief; their care of me has in turn allowed me to see how important it is to do the same to others. Tears do not scare me; there is no awkwardness for me when reaching out to friends or strangers in their distress. Being with others through their sorrow is a gift I embrace, and when reading the second portion of Paul’s counsel—weep with those who weep— I believe I can say, “Yes.” But the first half of the verse? Not so much.

I confess here and now that I have much to learn concerning rejoicing with others over their good news. “Really Sheila? I’ve seen and heard you graciously offer congratulations or seem interested in my joys.” And you’re right; I do try to be aware of others and celebrate their victories and I can honestly say that my happiness is usually sincere when others share their achievements, their victories, and their joys. I keep my ungrateful cards close to my chest for I have learned that I will end up with few friends in this world if I do not cultivate a sincere cheerfulness when others win the jackpot. But there are times when I simply wallow in the comparison game.

Last week I found myself wrestling my ungrateful demon when all the back-to-school photos hit the Facebook universe, especially all the high school senior images. Kindergarten through 12th grade, there they were on full display . . . new backpacks and shoes, smiling faces, each one eager to meet their teachers, face new challenges, make good grades, and enjoy the ride. As an educator, seeing families and students who value and enjoy the school-experience is a gift in itself as the family connection is vital to school success. But as a mom I felt as those the smiling faces were mocking my pain and all I wanted to do was take my cup of coffee and crawl to my dark place and lick my proverbial wounds. Let the pity-games begin.

Because you see, last week my baby, my last-one-at-home, my man-child who turns 18 in 129 days, also experienced his first-day-of-his-last-year-of-school. Having had two older sons who joyfully (?) posed at each and every request (and who were active participants in a traditional high school experience), the experience of letting my youngest be himself has been hard, and when I ponder the perceived golden standard of school success, in so many ways my youngest doesn’t measure up to that ideal. During high school he has attended 7 different schools or programs, including three months in Montana and almost a year in South Florida. A talented athlete, organized sports lost its attraction in 9th grade. There were months of silence and open hostility, our home at times resembling a war zone. We fought to cram him into our ideal of success and then fell back when we realized that plan was our plan, not his. At some point we were handed Grace in the form of a 12-step program and my husband and I realized that perhaps we needed as much, or more, help than our son. We made the decision to do our own work. Committing to a weekly family program, meeting with others weekly as they traveled our path with us provided a path. We sought counseling. We prayed . . . a lot. We set healthy boundaries so our son could experience our love in a safe environment. We released him from the burden of being responsible for our happiness, realizing that is an unwieldy load for anyone to bear. And things got better and things are getting better. Just as I advise many teachers to always find the thing their students do well, I had to take my own advice and look for all the goodness my youngest offers.

” . . . and he sends me texts and gifs that elicit raucous laughter (and sometimes happy tears) . . .”

Over the past year, as we’ve allowed our son to live with each and every consequence of his personal choices, he’s more times than not risen to the occasion, facing consequences with acceptance and responsibility, no longer playing the blame-everyone-else game of just a few years ago. He got a job, a hard, hot job, doing prep and dishwashing at a local seafood restaurant, working over 30 hours a week, getting himself there and back (he can walk – it’s 3 blocks from our house), and garnishing praise from his employer. (I had to recently drop something off and the kitchen manager came out to tell me, “I wish they all worked as hard and were as pleasant as your son.”) While assisting at our church’s service of feeding the homeless in our community, the organizer remarked on how gracious he was to the clients, treating them with respect and dignity.

My son makes me smile. He has a wicked sense of humor (at times too wicked) and he sends me texts and gifs that elicit raucous laughter, sometimes during meetings or other inopportune moments. He has good taste, using his hard earned pay to purchase clothes and shoes that he knows I’d never open my wallet for. And in spite of all the turmoil of the past three years, my son entered his senior year with enough credits to graduate. He never quit. (I was amazed when he had to take the state-mandated-graduation-requirement reading test after not being in an English class for over a year and solidly passed the first time; he said he didn’t see what the big deal was all about.) While he isn’t completing his senior year at the school of his first choice, he accepted that the school he did decide upon would provide the support and guidance he needs in order to graduate on time. We let him make that decision. He is still here with us in our home, never running away when circumstances and discord were at their darkest, and I can honestly say life with our son is better than it has been in years.

So back to last week. My son’s school journey that began in a Kenyan preschool has fast-forwarded to 12th. As I clicked through the

“His smile can light up a room and I capture those candid moments whenever I am secretly able to do so.”

perfect photos of others’ offspring, Jealousy tried its best to blind me to the gift of my son. No, I didn’t get a first-day-of-school photo and there’s a good chance I won’t get a fancy senior photo either. As he reminded me a few days ago, “Do you know how many really good photos you have of me just hanging around?” He’s right; I do. His smile can light up a room and I capture those candid moments whenever I am secretly able to do so. Maybe those captures portray him far better than any staged photo could. As I pulled out and tried to play my disappointment card last week, God reminded me of all the good staring me down.

Are things perfect? Is our family perfect? Of course not. Except on Facebook, what family is? But is our family restored and healing one day at a time? Absolutely.

I long to be better at the rejoicing part so I will practice. As I practice, I recognize that I actually do enjoy seeing how my friends’ children have grown and changed and matured. I will keep work on sincerely congratulating parents when their children excel in sports and make the dean’s list and get accepted to an Ivy League, reminding myself that my youngest is his own person and follows his own path, a path that is his, not mine. I will stop trying to live vicariously through his choices or compare him to anyone, recognizing that destruction is the only thing that results from such pressure. Praying that as I learn to rejoice with those who rejoice I’ll recognize the goodness surrounding my family and know every day that another’s joy does not negate my own.



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Please read.


Dear Teachers,

It’s the first day of school here in lovely St. Johns, Florida. You’ve already been back for a week, participating in professional learning, attending staff meetings, setting up your classrooms, getting ready. Today is the reason you’ve worked so hard to ensure all is right when the bell rings this morning.

You and your teaching peers are serving so many students across the Sunshine State. Of the 3,138,030 statewide total PK-12 student enrollment in the 2015-16 school year, 345,796 (11.0%) were private school students, and 2,792,234 (89.0%) were public school students1. (Homeschoolers add another 90,000 students based on the most recent estimates.) What do all those numbers mean on a Thursday morning, the first day of school? Simply put, dear public school teachers, YOU are facilitating the learning growth of almost 90% of Florida’s future leaders. You. What an honor. What a responsibility.

As you take up this monumental task, there will be so many things vying for your time . . . new progress monitoring programs to learn . . . last year’s test data to analyze . . . new legislation resulting in new scheduling concerns, forcing you to examine class time down to each precious minute. There will be the unknowns that eat up time but never make it into the lesson plans . . . children arriving late through no fault of their own . . . technology that might fail at the precise moment needed . . . students who come to school fidgety or sad or hungry or sick . . . parents and guardians who also have needs and questions and concerns. Your job is not for the faint of heart.

There are many answers to the question of how to best assist students in growing towards their full potential. Teach like a champion, teach like a maniac, teach like your hair is on fire, or teach like a Zen master–each view has unique merits that provide insightful advice on how to be better at the teaching craft or delivery; each is useful in different ways to different people. My quest for simplicity, however, leads me to offer a modest suggestion as you embrace this new year.


Just read.

Please read.

In these times of overflowing schedules I sadly hear teachers too often lament, “I know independent reading is important. If only there were time.” Somehow, public school teachers at every level, you must figure out how to make time.

The American Association of School Librarians (and Thomas Jefferson) makes the case for independent, voluntary (choice) reading as the key to school achievement:

Voluntary reading involves personal choice, reading widely from a variety of sources, and choosing what one reads. Alliterates, people who have             the ability to read but choose not to, miss just as much as those who cannot read at all. Individuals read to live life to its fullest, to earn a living, to understand what is going on in the world, and to benefit from the accumulated knowledge of civilization. Even the benefits of democracy and the capacity to govern ourselves successfully depend on reading. Thomas Jefferson believed that informed citizens are the best safeguard against tyranny. He believed that every citizen must know how to read, that it is the public’s responsibility to support the teaching of reading, and that children should be taught to read during the earliest years of schooling. In a letter to Colonel Edward Carrington, Jefferson (1787) wrote: “The basis of our government being the opinion of the people, the very first object should be to keep that right; and were it left to me to decide whether we should have a government without newspapers, or newspapers without a government, I should not hesitate a moment to prefer the latter.”

 So much of what is done in the name of education is compiled of what teachers do to students rather than what students are doing on their own. Students are given test prep, cold reads, non-fiction articles, novel studies (of which perhaps only half the students are interested in reading), all of which have their place at certain times, but those things must be balanced by the practice of reading at one’s independent level. How relevant and timely to teach a lesson on determining the theme of a piece of text, for example, then actually allowing time for the students to practice that skill in the context of their own reading level. When that happens on a consistent basis, literacy takes root.


An example I’ve used of late is that of learning to play the piano. A child goes to his first piano lesson, eager to learn. The instructor places Chopin’s Minute Waltz in front of the child, saying, “This is what good piano players play.” The child glances at his copy of The Itsy Bitsy Spider , a song he learned to sing with his mom. He really wanted to learn to play that piece. The well-meaning teacher, however, presses him to use the more difficult (impossible piece), even though his piano skills are light-years behind Chopin. After a few sincere attempts—he wants to please his teacher—he finally gives up. He decides he must be too stupid to ever play the piano. (And to all the amazing piano teachers out there, this is purely hypothetical. Thank you for starting with Itsy Bitsy Spider.)

Unfortunately that is what too often takes place in the classroom. In an attempt to prepare students for high-stakes assessment, teachers (myself included) have too often forgotten the importance of authentic practice at an independent and joyful level. Students are too often asked to read at a level that is out-of-reach based on the idea that, “Well, that’s the level they’ll get on the test so they better start now.” The reality is they can’t start there and will eventually come to believe they’re simply too stupid to read at all.

Students need to experience success in reading every single day in order to counter the lie that they are stupid or unteachable. They need to experience the pure joy of reading through an interesting text with ease and confidence. As daily reading practice is reinforced and encouraged and conferenced, reading time during which teachers observe and get to know the reading lives of each child and provide guidance and instruction as needed, students will move on to the next level, and the next, and the next.

Okay, I realize I make this sound easy. “Read. Just read.” Easy? It is not. In the midst of evaluations and VAM and computer testing and prank bomb threats and hurricane days and the lack of time and exhaustion, the reality is that every choice you make as an educator is weighted. I urge you, however, to give it a try. Work with your administration on creative scheduling. Do your own research on the impact of independent daily reading. (A current favorite of mine is Who’s Doing the Work? How to say less so readers can do more by Jan Burkins and Kim Yaris. It’s user-friendly and based on best practice research.) Spend time getting to know the interests of your students. Ask friends to donate magazines—Field and Stream, Popular Mechanics, National Geographic—for those students who prefer non-fiction. Become best friends with your school’s media specialist. Do whatever it takes.

Kylene Beers, educator, author, and researcher, recently tweeted:

 If we raise test scores but fail to raise readers, we have failed the child.

You, dear teachers, are some of the hardest workers and generous souls in the world, working countless unpaid hours and spending precious dollars to provide classroom environments that are conducive to learning. You do all in your power to prevent students from failing or feeling like failures. As you do the hard work, make sure your carefully designed and inviting reading nooks are not just for show but are filled with students doing the work, the work of reading. Embrace independent reading as a key strategy that allows students to practice and grow. As you jump into a new school year, eyes wide open, know that authentic reading will be one of the most positive choices you’ll ever make.

P.S. – Many of you reading this post are masters at what I’ve just described. Please share and comment below on ways you guard your students’ independent reading time. The more you share, the more we all learn.


One of the masters of independent reading, Catie Grimes, 6th grade reading teacher extraordinaire, creates inviting places in her classroom to support independent reading.



1 Public Education in Florida (2016). Ballotpedia: The Encyclopedia of American Politics. https://ballotpedia.org/Public_education_in_Florida



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Happy Birthday Aunt Virginia

Aunt Virginia with my mother Jackie, and Vernon (Dobie) DeSear, Samoset, circa 1949

One of my most vivid memories of childhood holiday dinners is my Aunt Virginia’s congealed-orange-carrot-celery salad. Served on individual glass plates—an extravagance in itself—atop a single leaf of lettuce with a dollop of mayonnaise, those perfectly cut little squares represented the thought and care that had gone into every step of the family feast. Even the way in which the carrots and celery were chopped in the tiniest of pieces made one aware that a labor of love had taken place.

Aunt Virginia seemed always to keep multiple plates spinning at the same time. Not a birthday would pass without a sweet card and a carefully written check from her account at the First National Bank of Bradenton, her place of employment for years and years. She had a brass nameplate on her desk that read Virginia R. Barco, Vice-President. For a long time I thought she was THE vice-president until one day she humbly told me, “Oh Sheila, there are countless vice-presidents; I’m just one of many.” Aunt Virginia worked away from her home before it was the norm for women to do so. Choosing to leave an abusive marriage in the early 1960s, in spite of the social stigma that was divorce in that time, Aunt Virginia provided for her two children through hard work and commitment, and always had time for others regardless of fatigue or discouragement. Prior to our first son’s birth, she mailed us a blanket she’d stitched by hand, simple, soft, and perfect for cuddling. It arrived in Papua New Guinea a few days before sweet Isaac’s death and we chose to wrap him in it when we laid him to rest. Knowing her blanket surrounded my precious son brought me comfort and hope in one of my darkest times.

Another meal at Aunt Virginia’s table, circa 1979.

The Roberts’ women have always carried a load of worry on their backs like a badge of honor, and my Aunt Virginia took worrying to the next level. She worried about everything but mostly about others. High cholesterol plagued her for years and she was incredibly consistent in watching her fat grams. One day while eating yet another meal at her table (one always ate when visiting Aunt Virginia), she gently chided me for the large slab of butter I smeared on one of her homemade biscuits. “Sheila, that’s going to catch up with you, you need to take more care.” (Of course, she was right; it has caught up with me big time.) I still remember the day I told her we were moving to Kenya with her precious great-nephew Sam, who was 18 months old at the time. Her eyes filled with tears as she lamented, “Oh Sheila, it’s so far away and he’s so little” but even with her misgivings she sent us off with prayers and hope. A year later, she and her daughter took the long flight to Kenya even though her idea of a grand adventure was a Sunday school trip to the Lake Wales Passion Play. I have no doubt that her longing to reassure herself that her Sam was safe and sound gave her the courage to board the plane. (The story describing her lack of sleep due to drums in the distant night will have to wait until another time; it’s a tale worthy of its own entry.)

Aunt Virginia and Jordan, Myakka State Park, circa 1983

Aunt Virginia may have been a worrier but she was also a prayer. She loved Charles Stanley from First Baptist Church of Atlanta and faithfully listened to his sermons on cassette tape, drawing strength and hope from his words. Bob Franklin, one of her pastors at Samoset Baptist Church, a church in which her parents – my grandparents – were charter members, challenged her to have a time of daily quiet, a practice she embraced and practiced for years. Her faith kept her free from bitterness and discontent, allowing her to live life graciously.

My precious Daddy loves Sister, the only name I have ever heard him use when referring to his older sibling. Sister, not Virginia. “How was Sister doing today?” he asked me recently after I had been to visit her. Their love for one another was, and is, true and authentic, a love forged through growing up in the Great Depression in Samoset, from being there for each other, whether through “Sister’s” divorce or my daddy’s loss of his first wife and his son. Together they cared for their father, my Grandaddy Jim, in a way that allowed him to die at home, surrounded by loved ones. Daddy would head to her house after a long day of work and together they would gently bathe their father, feed him dinner, and love him in practical ways. Theirs was a partnership known by the fortunate few.

A few of her beloved great-nephews, circa 2000

There is so much more to say about Virginia Ruth Roberts Barco. Her pound cake was hands down the best pound cake ever, even when she adapted the recipe with egg white and non-fat margarine. When she “blessed” someone’s heart it wasn’t always meant in the kindest of ways; “She never was a smart girl, bless her heart.” She loved pretty dresses, especially when they were on sale at Belk Lindseys or Maas Brothers. She loved those around her well—her children found her devoted, her nieces and nephews found her available, and her friends found her faithful.

Today is Aunt Virginia’s 93rd birthday, 93 years of a life well lived. In most ways, the woman described above is no longer with us. Her health has declined greatly over the past few months and when I visited her just a few days ago, I am not sure she recognized me. My hope is she did. I long to know what she’s thinking but, even more, I long for her to know that she is, and always will be, a fundamental part of the woman I have become. If there is any good in me, part of the credit goes to her.

Happy Birthday, Aunt Virginia. You, dearest one, are beloved.

Sister and Billy







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The Next 40 Days

Today marks the first day of my favored season of the church calendar – the 40 days leading up to Easter – Lent. Growing up Baptist, Lent was not something my family observed and it wasn’t until attending an Anglican church during our years in Kenya that I came to embrace and appreciate the practice of preparing for Easter and the passion of Christ through 4o days of simple living and a renewed sense of self-examination. Each year Lent provides me the opportunity to take a long, loving look at my life in order to recognize how I have wandered away from God’s love, grace, compassion, and forgiveness. It is a chance once again to return home.

You see, this year, more so than in recent years, I hunger for quiet. The noise of 2016 has yet to fade and I long to rid myself of the divisiveness I have allowed in my own life. I have grown weary of being ‘against’ so many things, leading only to confusion and misunderstanding. More than ever I long to be ‘for’ . . . for peace, for grace, for justice, for love. I long to speak out ‘for’ the things that promote equity and impartiality for all of God’s creatures.

Tonight as I sat in the midst of fellow worshipers and prayed from the Book of Common Prayer, the words spoke anew as if written moments ago rather than hundreds of years prior. The words challenged me to look at these next 40 days as a chance to rid myself of those things that hold me down and  instead seek calm and silence. Rather than give up wine or chocolate or Facebook (although I could stand to get rid of them all), this year I hope to take on being aware of all I can stand for.

Litany of Penitence from the Book of Common Prayer

Reflections from Sheila

We confess to you, Lord, all our past unfaithfulness: the pride, hypocrisy, and impatience of our lives . . .

          I am so impatient, with my husband and son and coworkers and bad drivers and people who don’t vote the way I do. I confess to you, Lord.

Our self-indulgent appetites and ways, and our exploitation of other people . . .

          How often do I take advantage of others, waiting for my turn to speak rather than listening with my whole heart? I confess to you, Lord

Our anger at our own frustration, and our envy of those more fortunate than ourselves . . .

          How jealous and envious I am of parents whose kids are “perfect” and people with bigger bank accounts and women who seem to always have it together. I confess to you, Lord.

Our intemperate love of worldly goods and comforts, and our dishonesty in daily life and work . . .

           How easily my eyes rest on things that don’t last and how often I look for short cuts. I confess to you, Lord.

Our negligence in prayer and worship, and our failure to commend the faith that is in us . . .

           Prone to wander, Lord I feel it. My daily rush causes me to forget You, the one who made me. I confess to you, Lord.

Accept our repentance, Lord, for the wrongs we have done: for our blindness to human need and suffering, and our indifference to injustice and cruelty . . .

          Wrong; I’m so often wrong. I look the other way far too often, ignoring needs that are right under my nose, worrying about what others think instead of laying it all on the line in order to stand up for the vulnerable and underserved. Accept my repentance, Lord.

For all false judgments, for uncharitable thoughts toward our neighbors, and for our prejudice and contempt toward those who differ from us . . .

          Contempt; what an ugly word. Disdain for those who aren’t like me, forgetting that You made us all in Your image. Accept my repentance, Lord.

For our waste and pollution of your creation, and our lack of concern for those who come after us . . .

       How can I be more aware of Your creation, this amazing planet You have allowed us to inhabit for a small moment in time? How can I support those working towards guarding our natural resources rather than taking them for granted through overuse and neglect? Accept my repentance, Lord.

Restore us, good Lord, and let your anger depart from us . . .

       Thank You for this next 40 days. Restore me. Make me aware. Fill me with life. Hear me, for Your mercy is great.

Accomplish in us the work of your salvation, that we may show forth your glory in the world.


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A Phone Call with My Daddy



There are all kinds of reasons I’ve called my father through the years. In high school I called to check-in, letting him know I’d safely arrived somewhere. During college (and at times beyond) I called to ask for money or car-advice. One of my favorite phone calls while living in Kenya was when my daddy called me to tell me O.J Simpson was driving down a highway with what seemed to be the entire world following him in slo-mo chase cars. (I kid you not; he called me in Kenya to tell me that.)

These days I call more to listen than to talk. At 90 my daddy is alert and aware but I’ve noticed of late that past experiences often seem more real to him than the present. So I’ll often ask about his childhood or young adulthood. I ask about his thoughts on different events. I listen and record and take it all in.

Tonight’s call was prompted by the day that will live in infamy. December 7th. Pearl Harbor. It was also prompted by my desire to hear my dad’s voice. I thought he might be in the mood to reminisce and I thought correctly. He shared some simple memories of that infamous day from his perspective. As our conversation came to a close, talk turned to the here-and-now, transitioning from 75 years ago to this moment. I was reminded why Daddy has always been one of the first people I call in this thing we call life. With a few simple words he reminded me that I was loved, that those who hold my heart are dearly loved, and that hope, well, hope is what keeps us going.


“Hey Daddy. Whatcha doin’?”

“Just got done eatin’ some squash and greens. Jordan grew the squash, I think.”

“I had peanut butter toast. I got home late and everyone had already eaten leftover chili so I just had peanut butter toast. What did you do today?”

“Went to the eye doctor. They, hmmm, Margie? What is that they did to my eyes?” he asked.

“Dilated. They dilated your eyes,” she said.

“Dilated. They put these drops in your eyes and it stings a bit. Have you ever had your eyes dilated?”

“I have. Just a few months ago. It makes them feel weird,” I said. “Daddy, do you know what today is?”


“Do you know what the date is?”

“December 7th. Pearl Harbor.”

“Daddy, do you remember Pearl Harbor?”

“Of course I remember Pearl Harbor. We were living down by the airport. It seems like along   about that time there was a lot of activity around Sarasota. You know that was a training base back then so the government could use it. I remember one night a plane took off and it didn’t get high enough and hit a pine tree and crashed to the ground and burned up. Right in front of Ringling. They died – all nine of them in that bomber,” he said.

“Oh Daddy. They all died?”

“They sure did. Burned up.”

“You were 15-years-old then.”

“Was I? I’ll be.”

“You were. Do you remember if people were scared when they heard about Pearl Harbor?”

“Well, I suppose we were all scared a bit but nobody was running around crazy or anything. You know there was a lot of activity over in Arcadia, too. They did training for smaller planes over there; fighter planes and such. They’d send boys over there to learn.”

“Do you know why they sent them to Arcadia? Why Arcadia?”

“I don’t really know. They had an airport over there. There was a grocery store down near our place. Tallevast Grocery. A man by the name of Perry owned it. He went over to Arcadia to teach those boys how to fly. I don’t know if that Perry man is still around. He knew how to fly planes so they got him to teach the boys.”

“I wonder where he learned to fly.”

“I have no idea. You know they’d ship those boys out of Tallevast. They’d come marching by our  house on their way to Tallevast—a thousand of ‘em— to catch a train to ship out to go over there.”

“Where would they ship them to?”

“I don’t know. Probably up north somewhere. You know, daddy and I helped build that airport when they were putting up new buildings and such.”

“I remember.”

“No you don’t.”

“I mean I remember you telling me that  you and Granddaddy helped to build it,” I said.

“Oh. I see. (Pause) Sam called me the other night. They’re living over there near Orlando.”

“Oh daddy, I’m glad he called you. How’d he sound?”

“He’s doing fine. I talked to the girl, too, I think. I bet you miss, Sam.”

“Sometimes I really do miss him daddy,” I said.

“And that Nathan off in Mississippi. I bet you miss him, too.”

“I miss him a lot, daddy.”

“And Jack?”

“Well, Jack’s still here, daddy. I don’t miss him yet.”

(laughing) “That’s right; he’s still there in high school. Jack. He’ll be okay, that one. He will. You wait.”

“I think so, too; I do.  I love you, Daddy.”

“I love you, too,” he said. “Get yourself some rest.”




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Today. Love.

This afternoon Devan and I attended the funeral mass of a young man, 18 years old, killed in a road accident just a few days ago. This young man, a friend of our son’s, lived one street over and as a middle school student would spend time playing basketball in our driveway or skateboarding up and down our street. While out walking our dog Tuesday, this young man drove by; he stopped, waved, and said, “How are you, Mrs. Veatch?” In less than 9 hours, that young man would be dead.

Jack accompanied us to the funeral, a sense of dread showing on his face. Right before we left to drive to the church, he said, “I don’t think I do funerals well” and I sensed how uncomfortable he was to be attending a service for a friend whose life was cut short at 18. Jack has encountered few deaths in his almost 17 years, especially of anyone he knew personally, especially of an age-peer. Death is for the old, the sick, those who have lived their lives; as Henry Melville said, “Youth is immortal; tis the elderly only grow old.” But those of us who have lived longer know differently.

During the service I watched Jack out of the corner of my eye; stoic, unsmiling, holding back tears; and as I watched him I felt conflicted. Part of me longed to pick him up, that big man-child, and hold him close to provide comfort. I longed for him to be 6 or 7 or 9, young enough so I could physically manage his whereabouts and his choices, defending him from the world and its dangers. Another part of me wanted to just shake him and scream, “Please don’t be stupid. Don’t put yourself in harm’s way. Can’t you see what can happen?” But of course, I did neither. Instead I sat and listened and prayed for the mother and father seated in the front of the church, watching as they experienced a pain like no other.
I also found myself thinking of another funeral, one that took place over 40 years ago. My own brother Jimmy, then not much older than the one whose service I was attending today, was also killed in a car accident late one night. My own brother whose birthday was this very day, October 2nd. If his life had not ended on that dark road, today we would be celebrating his 64th year. But he is not 64 – I cannot even imagine – and he will instead be always frozen in youth. So many times I’ve heard my father say what he wouldn’t give to go fishing with Jimmy just one more time. One more meal together. One more talk. One more chance to Love.

I don’t want to read anything into the fact that on today, my brother’s birthday, I would find myself at a memorial service for another . . . but I would be amiss if I did not pause and consider the mystery of it all. Life. Death. Youth. Age. At 18 many think they are invincible. At 64 and beyond most realize they are not. How do I convince my own son that life is not a given, that at any moment an accident or an illness could change everything? That the harsh words he sometimes chooses could be the last words he speaks? I cannot. He, like each of us, must come to that realization himself and no shaking, screaming or controlling on my part can make that decision for him or for anyone. What I can do, however, is Love.

At the end of the day . . . at the end of our lives . . . Love is really all there is. God’s Love for us. Our Love for God and others. Love. Love that holds back piercing and wounding words, replacing them with thoughtful listening and care. Love that sees beyond differences and instead embraces them. Love that lets go of control and demands and, instead, creates healthy boundaries. And, as I was reminded today, Love that reaches out with each and every breath as if it was its last.


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